favorites movies & music of 2010.

for garrett.

...foreign movie: The Secrets in Their Eyes (even though it won a 2009 Oscar)
...mind-blowing movie: Catfish (without having seen Black Swan)
...movie seen on a date: West Side Story at the Paramount
...movie that made me cry the most: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, pt. 1
...real-life funny movie: The Kids are All Right
...not-just-a-kids-movie movie: Toy Story 3
...worst movie: Tie between Leap Year and The Backup Plan
...movie jen and i walked out of: Death at a Funeral (American version)
...movie jen and i should have walked out of: Main Street

...album I didn't like at first but then loved: The Wild Hunt, The Tallest Man on Earth
...album for stormy feelings: High Violet, The National
...album i can't get out of my head: My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy, Kanye West
...soul revival: Songs for a Break Up, Fitz and the Tantrums
...album that i listened to before it threw up on the radio: Sigh No More, Mumford and Sons
...album for nostalgia: So Runs the World Away, Josh Ritter
...singles: Fuck You by Cee-Lo Green, Go Do by Jonsi, and Round and Round, Ariel Pink's Haunted Graffiti

:)

(digital can't look like this.)

observations.

may 2010. our last night in austin

(april 2009 i rode the ferris wheel for the first time. and one year + one month later i could never have predicted everything that would happen.) you said i talk about kerrville a lot and i know this is what memory does and i'm okay with that.

i had a dream last night
and rusting far below me
battered hulls and broken hardships
leviathan and lonely
i was thirsty so I drank
and though it was salt water
there was something ‘bout the way
it tasted so familiar

time, love.

time, love.

time, love.

it's only a change of time.

i can't decide if i look old or young in that picture. i feel both. in 3 days i will be 20.

doesn't that seem like such a huge number?

(i think) i keep myself on a tight string. i didn't really realize i self-discipline. and i never realized why until now.

and still i'm wondering (how much of my heart to give.) if i have let go (erase the schedule and the lists) just right. or too much. or not enough.

I had a dream last night

And when I opened my eyes

Your shoulder blade, your spine

Were shorelines in the moon light

New worlds for the weary

New lands for the living

I could make it if I tried

I closed my eyes I kept on swimming

change of time by josh ritter (this song makes me cry.)

Robin's Wedding Shower

I just got back from San Antonio for my cousin Robin's bridal shower. It was quite fun. Amy (my cousin and the Maid of Honor) hosted, along with my Aunt Ilene's Mah-jong friends. The Mah-jong ladies are adorable, and the shower went really well. I made the table decorations (mirror and confetti are the Martha Stewart Wedding line for Wal Mart) and little note tags as a guestbook. Amy got the cupcakes from The Cake Shop in San Antonio. Aren't they cute? 

It felt so comforting to be back at Aunt Ilene's house. I feel like so much of my childhood has been steadied by the Goldman’s and their homes. It’s so great that the play room hasn’t changed at all in fifteen years. Old Spurs pictures and posters of 90210 t.v. stars and Kate and Leo in Titanic still grace the walls. I remember sitting in those circle bucket chairs and watching Babysitter's Club until we fell asleep and promptly fell off the chairs. The house still smells faintly of cat food, even though Rocket died years ago. Robin and Amy’s rooms still have their stuff inside, and the pictures on the walls haven’t changed. Just the people in them.