may 2010. our last night in austin

(april 2009 i rode the ferris wheel for the first time. and one year + one month later i could never have predicted everything that would happen.) you said i talk about kerrville a lot and i know this is what memory does and i'm okay with that.

i had a dream last night
and rusting far below me
battered hulls and broken hardships
leviathan and lonely
i was thirsty so I drank
and though it was salt water
there was something ‘bout the way
it tasted so familiar

time, love.
time, love.
time, love.
it's only a change of time.

i can't decide if i look old or young in that picture. i feel both. in 3 days i will be 20.
doesn't that seem like such a huge number?

(i think) i keep myself on a tight string. i didn't really realize i self-discipline. and i never realized why until now.

and still i'm wondering (how much of my heart to give.) if i have let go (erase the schedule and the lists) just right. or too much. or not enough.

I had a dream last night
And when I opened my eyes
Your shoulder blade, your spine
Were shorelines in the moon light
New worlds for the weary
New lands for the living
I could make it if I tried
I closed my eyes I kept on swimming

change of time by josh ritter (this song makes me cry.)


collinsaustin said...

Didn't you ride the ferris wheel fall semester when the circus came to town?

Margo said...

no, that was last april - spring semester '09 - when we all rode together.

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